Fast forward 6 months.

Wow I can't believe 6 months has passed since my last post. Where the time has gone I just don't know. But one thing is for sure, we've been busy here at Casa de Wons up keeping the joint & adding a new back yard space to hang out in. This is something we've always wanted to do in the past 12yrs that we've lived here. And now finally it's a dream come true! A beautiful gift from my Mom in Law :) And hard work from my Dad & Hubby to put it together. In the spring we really enjoyed it. By summer the heat kept us inside, except for the 1hr a day I would lay out and tan. I've got a great tan by the way ;) Thank You Mr. Sun! watch... I'll get skin cancer now. I sure hope not. Because before this summer I rarely ever got any sun....hence my year long pastiness.

So now that all areas of our home seem to be functional, it's just too warm to enjoy having company over. I'm pretty bummed. And since I'm planning a big birthday celebration for our son jake this weekend I'm on the hunt for a portable space cooler ac unit. 2 would be dandy! I'd like to open up the basement bar but it has to be comfortable for people. Our main AC unit is only three years old and it doesn't seem to be working that great now. I told the hubby at the store when we bought it to get the bigger btu unit, but he swore this one would work fine. Needless to say, I was right. I'm starting to think that maybe I should ARGUE my point acrossed and stick to my guns more often instead of TRUSTING the decisions of others. Cause since I gave up the reigns it's been one disappointment after another.

SO LOOKING FORWARD TO AUTUMN. The son has been one demanding little shit this summer. I feel like a fricken slave when he's home. School can not come soon enough!!! I didn't even wait for the back to school list to come this year- I've already started picking things up. I have one more big function to conquer before then... Dana's 17th birthday. Then I can hopefully regain my sanity and control around here.

Meanwhile, things have been looking up for the hubby at work. He was just promoted to be a supervisor which hopefully will bring in more money every two weeks. It's been extremely tight around here. Something we are no strangers to, but we seem to make do. Where there's a will, I will find a way. All outside assistance has ceased, even George stopped paying child support again back in April. That prick loser has such wonderful timing. But I can't let myself get into that right now. We all know my feelings when it comes to him. I just feel awful when Dana wants something and I cannot give it to her right away. I see what all the other teens have, a car, iphone, cool stuff etc. and it kills me. But lucky for me she understands. I really want to do something special for her birthday this year. I hope I can make it happen.

The holidays have all come and gone, each were filled with the closeness of our family in celebration. This really has been a year for family bonding. I'm blessed. Friendships have changed, things are chill here now on the weekend hangouts with friends. I'm not sure if were growing out of our ways, or what? But drinking and partying just seems blehhh to us anymore. Especially since weight watchers took over my life! I lost 40lbs on it, and Im a lifetime member now :) I'm very proud of myself. And I'm keeping it off just fine! My diet has definitely changed my weekend behaviors. I don't care much for drinking now except on occassion :) Plus I tend to eat a whole lot less when not consuming alcohol. Mmmm but I still love food. I'm currently trying to put together a menu of all our favorite low-fat meals that we love. I want a real menu for the house! Haha... Creativity in the kitchen keeps my diet work fun.

Tomorrow is Jake's 8th birthday :) It's also my parents 37th anniversary. So were having dinner ordered in here at Casa de Wons in celebration :) I plan to make jake an exploding birthday cake to scare the shit out of him :)) Paybacks for all the shit I have to put up with LOL. I can't wait to see his face! That reminds me to recharge my camera batteries. Hahahaha...
Saturday is the Zombie themed party we are hosting for him. I managed to get the decorations and favors in even though ZOMBIES aren't easy to find this time of year. He better appreciate all my hard work to make this day perfect for him. But he probably wont. It's hard finding kids to come to parties. Usually we just buy him a present and take him out somewhere fun. I must have been feeling ambitious this year. Ugga.... now I'm hoping for good weather, so it's not too hot to enjoy.

and that's all I can think of right now for catching up. Hope you weren't too bored ;)

Happy 2012 Everybody!

Happy 2012 Everybody! (Year of the Dragon baby!)
I just know 2012 will bring much love and luck to my family & I. I can feel it in my bones. Oh wait..... that could be the pain in my legs from "BEASTING" at the gym.~as Rob calls it :) Whatever it is, I'm feeling good. So good in fact, I'm feeling a little ambitious? I've gone and made some resolutions this year which I never do.

1st, I'm going to keep working hard, even harder to lose weight by putting in 5 miles a day of cardio workout. And weight train for toning my upper body. After I lost 26lbs I've been at a plateau, it's time to up the routine I think.
2nd, I'd really like to make time for people in my life that we don't usually get to see all that much anymore. There are some really great and funny people, family, and couples in our lives whom I'd love to get to know better. Develop closer friendships. It's just time to branch out a little, I think broaden the horizon a little bit with variety. New conversations sound delightful for 2012.
*We've been blessed to have such awesome friends these past years and I love ya muah! I'm so happy in knowing you'll always be there, thick or thin. No matter what.

My hubby says to me yesterday; "Babe, I feel happy! It's so nice to feel completely happy." It truly is a serene, and tranquil feeling. The challenge is to maintain that feeling. Something not so easy for me, anyhow. I'm usually conquering one issue while slipping by on another. It's a constant tug and pull in my life. So I guess I'll continue to add that to the list of resolutions too.
3rd, To be AWARE of my mindset and keep some kind of happy balance. There are so many things in our daily lives that can throw us off track "IF" we let them. So I've got to remind myself of how blessed my life has been. The wonderful children that "bring" life into my day, the adoring husband that walks beside me through this life holding me up, my parents for being my rock always, and dear friends who love me for me and my multible personalities. ;) (Hey you get 2 for 1!) Gemini's are fun, you never know which one will show up. lol

And my last and final new year resolution is Forgiveness.
4th, I've started truly allowing forgiveness into my heart back in October. I no longer want to carry around sadness or regret, or anything negative that has imprinted on my life. No more... I'm done, and ready to move onward. I've learned letting go of the past is sometimes painful and very hard, but if I hold onto these feelings, it just drags me down. It wears me down. Sometimes people hurt you, it's part of the deal. Learn from it and grow stronger. My goal is to make peace with everyone I've had beef with at some point. I won't allow myself to be taken for a fool, but I'll finally be able to let go of some crud muddying up my zen :)
Ultimately, I will be a skinny, zenful, compassionate, great friend, mom, wife, sister, daughter etc.... by the time 2013 rolls around. haha
xoxox
Nameste!