Sunday, October 30, 2011
My Chinese Zodiac
THE FIRE DRAGON 1916 AND 1976The Fire Dragon is a powerful force to be reckoned with. This is a Dragon doubled! The Fire Dragon can move from calm and collected to combustible in a matter of seconds. In some ways the Fire Dragon is his or her own worst enemy. These Dragons cannot help feeling they are valuable and all-knowing. When they are right their vehemence and vigor is an asset to the cause, and though they value objectivity, they do not always employ the best decision-making measures, and sometimes jump to the wrong conclusion. They also suffer from recklessness and quick tempers. Yet, when they do keep their temper, emotions, and rivaling spirit under control, they emanate a commanding influence on other people.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Dream Journal
Bridge
To dream that you are crossing a bridge signifies an important decision or a critical junction in your life. This decision will prove to be a positive change filled with prosperity and wealth in the horizon. Bridges represent a transitional period in your life where you will be moving on to a new stage. If the bridge is over water, then it suggests that your transition will be an emotional one.
~my bridge dreams are always over water and I'm always on foot walking acrossed. In this one, there were strangers walking with me, and it was extremely windy and gray skies. There were cars in the water that didn't make it across. I did make it across however by foot. Destination- Deleware South bound?
To dream that you are crossing a bridge signifies an important decision or a critical junction in your life. This decision will prove to be a positive change filled with prosperity and wealth in the horizon. Bridges represent a transitional period in your life where you will be moving on to a new stage. If the bridge is over water, then it suggests that your transition will be an emotional one.
~my bridge dreams are always over water and I'm always on foot walking acrossed. In this one, there were strangers walking with me, and it was extremely windy and gray skies. There were cars in the water that didn't make it across. I did make it across however by foot. Destination- Deleware South bound?
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
A work in progress.
Happy October! It's the most wonderful time of the year...for me anyway. Crisp cool weather, the changing leaves, Autumn mums blooming everywhere, & creatures preparing their food supply for Winter. Today however, I'm sitting here feeling lost. I think I have everything I've ever wanted, a working husband, two healthy happy kids in school, the house quiet and to myself. Oh how I LOVE being alone during the day...I may even enjoy being alone in the evening as well. So I don't know what my problem is. Am I bored? I should probably focus and read a motivational book or concentrate on crafting. There are many things I "should" be doing but, all I wanna do is crawl up into the fetal position and watch Charmed on TNT. Charmed makes me miss my bff even more. Life is shitty with my bf being hundreds of miles away :(
I am making plans for the family to do some fun Fall activities this month. We have already gone apple picking. I've been doing the whole baking thing, and in a week or two we'll be going to the haunted hayride/ mansion at Sleepy Hallow. Fun stuff. I think what I really want and have been lacking is my intimate connection with nature around me. Somethings off, like I've been disconnected and I truly dislike it. My mind is in a fuzz :( maybe an effect of the prozac? Saddening. Whatever it is, I need to fix it fast. Otherwise, I'll just continue to feel this blah disconnectedness.
I want to take a quiet walk in the park or some place peaceful. I want to watch and observe the wild life going about their business. I want to capture that awesome photograph, that special moment! I want that quiet peacefulness in my life but to be able to accomplish something fulfilling at the same time. Something I can't do when other people are around me bossing me around, stressing me out. But I don't walk in the park alone because it's dangerous. Why do I have to be a tiny female? Maybe I need to take a self defense course so Im not feeling so vulnerable when alone. Maybe I need to work on me! work on finding ways for my own personal liberation. hmmm....
On another note, I'm staying the course healthwise and staying with my goal to lose the extra weight. Yay me! Still doing weight watchers and it's working! 18.lbs lost!!! so far and I feel great. I've put away all the tents I've been wearing. The clothes especially tops that I have, have been getting too big. Most of my tee's are falling off me, and I pulled out some smaller tops that I had put away. I lost 1 whole size in jeans which is a good start. My goal is to lose 2-3 more sizes. It's been a noticable difference :) You know, my weigh had been out of control and making me miserable for years, it feels really awesome to finally have control over it again. Weight Watchers works!!! And I owe it to my Mom for making me go! I remember that day I stepped on the scale only to see I had gained 5 more pounds putting me at my heaviest weight ever! My world felt crushed and hopeless and I called my mom in tears. She took my hand and drove with me to the weight watchers meeting and got me signed right up. I was doubtful. But after being shown how to eat better and better portion, the weight started coming off right away! 2-4lbs a week :) a little at a time. And it's staying off too! Yeah there are those weeks in between, when I only maintain the weight loss but no gain is good! And I'm on my way back to a healthier outlook on life and myself. No more beating myself up! No more putting myself down! I'm self loving baby!! Cause if I dont learn to love myself, how can I expect others to love me? Actually, if I love myself- screw everyone else. I don't need their love. And I'm certainly finished begging for acceptance and approval.
I'm working on me now. And right now it's time for a healthy protien rich breakfast and some yoga to follow. Have a great day everybody!
I am making plans for the family to do some fun Fall activities this month. We have already gone apple picking. I've been doing the whole baking thing, and in a week or two we'll be going to the haunted hayride/ mansion at Sleepy Hallow. Fun stuff. I think what I really want and have been lacking is my intimate connection with nature around me. Somethings off, like I've been disconnected and I truly dislike it. My mind is in a fuzz :( maybe an effect of the prozac? Saddening. Whatever it is, I need to fix it fast. Otherwise, I'll just continue to feel this blah disconnectedness.
I want to take a quiet walk in the park or some place peaceful. I want to watch and observe the wild life going about their business. I want to capture that awesome photograph, that special moment! I want that quiet peacefulness in my life but to be able to accomplish something fulfilling at the same time. Something I can't do when other people are around me bossing me around, stressing me out. But I don't walk in the park alone because it's dangerous. Why do I have to be a tiny female? Maybe I need to take a self defense course so Im not feeling so vulnerable when alone. Maybe I need to work on me! work on finding ways for my own personal liberation. hmmm....
On another note, I'm staying the course healthwise and staying with my goal to lose the extra weight. Yay me! Still doing weight watchers and it's working! 18.lbs lost!!! so far and I feel great. I've put away all the tents I've been wearing. The clothes especially tops that I have, have been getting too big. Most of my tee's are falling off me, and I pulled out some smaller tops that I had put away. I lost 1 whole size in jeans which is a good start. My goal is to lose 2-3 more sizes. It's been a noticable difference :) You know, my weigh had been out of control and making me miserable for years, it feels really awesome to finally have control over it again. Weight Watchers works!!! And I owe it to my Mom for making me go! I remember that day I stepped on the scale only to see I had gained 5 more pounds putting me at my heaviest weight ever! My world felt crushed and hopeless and I called my mom in tears. She took my hand and drove with me to the weight watchers meeting and got me signed right up. I was doubtful. But after being shown how to eat better and better portion, the weight started coming off right away! 2-4lbs a week :) a little at a time. And it's staying off too! Yeah there are those weeks in between, when I only maintain the weight loss but no gain is good! And I'm on my way back to a healthier outlook on life and myself. No more beating myself up! No more putting myself down! I'm self loving baby!! Cause if I dont learn to love myself, how can I expect others to love me? Actually, if I love myself- screw everyone else. I don't need their love. And I'm certainly finished begging for acceptance and approval.
I'm working on me now. And right now it's time for a healthy protien rich breakfast and some yoga to follow. Have a great day everybody!
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