The Other Theory

Zeitgeist: The Movie

Ever feel like nothing makes any sense when it should be common sense?

Ever feel like you're being lied to by the media? Getting screwed by the country? Do you believe WAR is not the answer? well it's big business for the Federal Reserve Banks and big names behind it.

Conspiracy theories could be Fact? Check out this film, and learn about everything the government doesn't want you to know. Ideas and Big business that could really be behind 9-11. Who's the real terrorists??? You decide- watch this 3 part film on Religion, Government and Financial Institutions.

This film will have your head spinning. WAKE UP PEOPLE!!! Educate yourself!

Modern Day RockaBilly PinUp

How cute is she? This is my inner chick, screaming to get out and express herself. She's a classic timeless beauty in modern times. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the Rockabilly/ Retro Pinup looks. I was so excited when this style became BIG again over this past Spring/Summer. But sad at the same time because I'm also at my largest weight size ever. Even when I put these clothes on in my size 14, I don't feel good. I feel unattractive, and this has been my struggle for the past few years. And with each failed attempt to diet an exercise I feel even worse.  
It doesn't help matters when you have iddy biddy friends tearing themselves apart over how fat they are. SERIOUSLY? if your fat, I must be a cow. All I know is, I went shopping with a friend tonight in search of pinup clothes for the photo shoot I will be taking, and It was pure torture seeing all the CUTE dresses and things that I could never fit into being the size that I am now. I'm not even a curvacious 14. I'm more like a chunk! I've tried to just come to grips with my body, accepting that this is part of aging and my gene pool. But just when I think im ok with it, something happens and my inner rockabilly chick starts screaming to get out again. I probably just need to shut the bitch up with chocolate. LOL Anywho.... it's the same old story. I try again tomorrow.

It's Not PMS- It's YOU!

I'm not feeling organized in my own home as of late. Things keep getting messy when you share a home with two kids, a husband, and three mischievious kitties. I know I'm not alone in the endless vicious cycle of mess, but I can only bite my tongue for so long before my whistle blows. Alot of it has to do with my sons endless amount of toys. He doesn't just collect toys, he collects various items from around my home too that in his mind can be used as weapons for playing soldier, or camping gear. The boy brought a bag full of sticks and leaves into my home to play with. I REFUSE to, but I certainly could vaccum everyday not just from the leaves coming in from the rainy fall season, but from eating that goes on in the living room in front of the tv. Why even have a dining room table and chairs if you wont sit and eat there? And for the record, the dining room table is not for accumilating mounds of shit! Keys have a place, newspapers get recycled after reading, and shopping bags should be emptied and put away. Please hang the school bags in the coat closet. It's very simple, and it keeps mom happy.

Mom also hates waking up to a dirty kitchen, especially when she wiped everything down the night before. IT GETS OLD really quick. It's bad enough that I have to keep up with the natural occurance of dust and cat hair. Please take a minute and wipe the counter after you make a sandwich or chow down some cookies. I know the coffee pot is fickle and tends to drip when pouring, but we've had the same coffee pot for the past 5yrs, take 4 steps to the left and POUR YOUR COFFEE OVER THE SINK if you know it drips or feel free to wipe down the counter, and front of the cabinet and floor, when your done making that mess. And for the record this also applies to the sugar bowl.

The list goes on and on. Little things here and there, but they add up! And it knocks the ZEN right out of me. All the sage in the world can't help me now. Just cooperative roomates can. I just got rid of ALOT of stuff last week by giving it to the salvation army and I still feel overwhelmed by stuff. I'm starting to see the logic in Fueng Shui. Less is more. Simple. I moved all my sons toys & toy box to his bedroom so I wouldn't have to see it overflowing all over our house. So instead of playing with his toys in his room now, he plays with my decorations. So I'm still cleaning crap up at the end of the night. I now wonder why we have tv sets in each of the kids bedrooms, because they only seem to watch tv in the living room. Why do I bother making dinner when the whole family doesn't sit down and eat together? My son eats only hotdogs and chicken nuggets, my daughter pretty much only eats chicken. I want my kids to be healthy~how can I get them to eat dinner?

I haven't felt this annoyed with petty stuff in years. I learned to let the little things slide, but now It's a matter of laziness. Our kids learn from example, so let's teach them not to leave the cleanup for the next schmuk. Teach them responsibility without resenting it, show them how to live greener, and cleaner. Teach them that love comes from within and not from 1000 toys. Uh there's many lessons that we could highlight here, but I'm sure to some I sound like the teacher on the Peanuts cartoon. wah wah wah wahhhh wahhhh.

And Men.... for the record... NO IT"S NOT PMS! Do you think I live to clean shitty toilets after each time you take a massive explosive shit? When you pee, AIM for the pot! When you chew your food, do it with your mouth closed!  When you undress, put the dirty clothes in the laundry basket not at the foot of the bed. Shoes...OUT OF THE WALKWAY PLEASE preferably on the stairs or in the shoe tray. Not using the phone? hang it up! Not in a room? shut off the light. It's not hard to do people. I can't begin to count how many times I find the basement light left on with nobody down there. NO it's not ghosts.

Lately, all I've been wanting to do is sleep. If I sleep- I dont have to think or deal with conflict an these things that are bugging me. I'm alone, and it's peaceful. I'm actually thinking about setting up my bedroom with my own personal tv (for my shows only), a laptop and my own personal reading library and most importantly a DEAD BOLT LOCK for the bedroom door! Because everyone needs a place of tranquility, decluttered from bullshit and TOYS! or a spa package! lol

Lord, give me strength. Give me patience and the energy to keep up. Most importantly, give me back my desire to keep going.

Happiness is Golden.

With all that's going wrong in the world, it's important to find what makes you happy from day to day. I find my happiness by spending time with my family, making them happy. Their laughter is priceless! Far too often we adults take life too seriously. Maybe it's because of work, lack of energy, or an overwhelming schedule, that we forget how to let go and enjoy life as it's happening. Once you do, the door is open for an abundance of happiness to pour in.

Tired of watching my teen and her friends just hanging around outside bored, I suggested they come in and play a board game. THERE'S AN ANCIENT IDEA! Hahaha Eventually they did come inside to play Life and Monopoly and guess what? They had a great time! My home was filled with 5 teens laughing and enjoying themselves- they way kids should. I spent the evening in the kitchen making candy most the night. I find enjoyment in feeding them :) I have to say as much as I like my quiet time, I like having people over all the same. My daughter must have thanked me a dozen times for the suggestion. It's a pity that there's nothing in the neighborhood for good kids to do anymore. It's upsetting. Oh well, guess that means open house at my place more often :)

I'm an Artist

What am I meant to do in this lifetime?

What is my purpose?

 My husband knows me all to well when it comes to career choices. The sky is the limit, so why settle on just one career? Fact of the matter is, I don't have a career because I just can't limit myself to one! I get bored easily whenever work starts feeling like a job. I'm a free spirit who wants to dabble in everything! My ideas and interests are always changing~I'm an artist! If I stay in one place for too long, I start to feel stuck. So it is my conclusion, I am a full time Wife and Mom with many different hobbies. I like it this way. I am free to test my artistic nature, experiment with new mediums, and ideas, and mainly challenge my limit. If you say it's impossible to do- I want to prove you wrong! That's just the way I've always been.

 I see so much beauty everywhere, and I'd love to capture all of it on film. Yes photography is my newest and latest hobby. There is so much that can be felt with a photo. It can be interpreted differently each time you look at it. I love how a person interacts with a photo, it's poetry in constant motion with emotion. Photography like any one of my other 100 hobbies drives me to produce my best. I have a vision, and the creative spark to produce it. I'll get there with practice and as I build up my collection of snazzy equipment. Like with everything else that I do, I'm self taught. I'm a hands on kind of gal :) And trust me I am my own worst critic.


In the upcoming months, it's my desire to do some dark/ artsy/ & burlesque photography. I'm looking for models! So if you'd be interested in modeling for me as I build my portfolio, give a shout out. :) Experimental makeup, costumes and just pure creative fun!

Happy Mabon!

Mabon, the Autumn Equinox, is the counterbalance to Ostara. Once again, night and day are equal. Yet, after tonight, the seesaw tips toward night more than day.

The time of the second harvest, Mabon's another time to gather the fruits of one's labor and to cut away what is no longer necessary. It's a time to reflect on what fell out of balance, and how to right that balance to move into the dark portion of the year. The Autumn Equinox is also known as the Witches' Thanksgiving. Today, spend time with the family you've created out of friends, colleagues, neighbors, and loved ones. Throw a large potluck feast. Celebrate outside if weather permits. Take a moment to remember those who were lost through the year, those who were harvested. Give thanks for all that is good in your life, and take a few minutes to share your graditude with those gathered- Cerridwen Iris Shea

Japanese Koi

I wonder how these computer graphic designers make such cool applications such as the Koi fish pond I have added to the top of my blog.

I like to pretend they are real. Every time I visit I feel the need to feed them :) They scurry around chasing my curser as I drop fish food around for them. I can always tell when they havent been fed in a while too because they tend to be more in a frenzie! haha I'm nuts I know.

I want a real koi pond someday!