Thursday, July 29, 2010

I Love Pink's FunHouse ;)



I've got to say, I've always been a fan of Pink and her bad ass attitude, but I have a whole new perspective of her from her latest album "FunHouse." I haven't listened to a single song that I didn't like from it. It's the story in her music that draws me in. I feel where she's coming from, it's very personal. And her concert was nothing short of AMAZING!!!



Psst....I secretly wanna be Pink!

GOING VIA POSTAL


Alright so my husband gets a notice for Jury Duty a few months ago- In the remarks section he claimed to be Buddhist and it was against his religion to pass judgement on others. It apparently worked becaue he was excused from Jury duty. I havent gotten a notice in years until I thought about it last week. When low and behold- there was a jury notice in my mail. WTF! so I was advised to use the same excuse by my husband. I did and within 3 days I was sent a letter telling me IM NOT EXCUSED! And can't be excused for religious reasons. FML! Ok then... It doesn't really matter though because Im already scheduled to be in FAMILY COURT that same day. Because, my lovely X (George Carroll) thinks he's entitled to having partial custody after 14yrs abandonment of my daughter. But that's not even the half of it. What a waste of my time! Today I'm feeling pushed to my limit by the way things work in this city. Careful: I may go POSTAL!

Monday, July 26, 2010

It's a Celebration!




Jake was born on July 26th 2004 which also happened to be my parents wedding anniversary :) Hahaha He was my gift to them- but they gave him back! WHOMP!

So every year we celebrate together, only this year they each got their own special cake. Jake wanted his Dual Survival Cake with Cody Lundin and Dave Canterbury on it (from the Discovery Channel) ~because that's his new thing :) I thought it would be cool to share the pix on Cody's Facebook Page, and Cody commented back "saying it was the coolest cake he'd ever seen!" Yeah yeah It kind of made my day :) He even asked permission to post the cake pix to his album :) How cool is that? Well I think it's very cool that Cody wished Jake a happy 6th Birthday! This is one for the scrapbook!

Dana's work of art cake is pictured above as well. And Mmmm it was DELISH! 3 layer tier cake with buttercream icing! So after celebrating this special day over lunch at the Longhorn Steakhouse, we all came back for CAKE CAKE & MORE CAKE!

and I've been uploading pix ever since :P

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Frazzeled in Fondant


K so I've been feeling funky since Friday night. By Saturday it was even worse and the 98 degree weather was NOT helping! I felt badly, I was spending the night with Patsy doing a PinUp shoot in CapeMay & I couldn't exactly go off and hibernate like I normally do. I didn't want to stress her out with my funk. But she's such a good friend, I think she understands.

I've just not been feeling myself AT ALL lately. I know I need to see a Dr. I just don't have it to put out rt now- or ever for that matter. Not having health coverage BLOWS! ((does anyone have Dr who can write me a script for increased Synthroid Medication?)) It's for my Thyroid. I'm having major HOT FLASHES and Ugh I'm sweating like a F@$king pig. I'm so uncomfortable in my own skin right now-I WANT OUT of this BODY!

So anyway, funk and all I make it home Sunday knowing the long night ahead of me. I promised the kids we'd bake fancy cakes. Jakes Birthday Cake & an Anniversary Cake for my parents. As I walked in the door, I nearly cried- I was that happy to be home! After a well needed shower, I was off to Michaels an the Market for cake supplies. People everywhere were riding my last nerve.... slow ass mutha fricken checkout lines! I stood in line envisioning myself punching the damn chicks face in just to feel better. But it didn't work- I was still pissy. ha.

On the way home Chris told me how Dana woke up today wanting to make me breakfast (but I wasnt going to be home until late noon) and have the house clean for my arrival. She really stepped up today and motivated the boys to help her accomplish this! I'm so FRICKEN PROUD & TOUCHED by her that I literally BAWLED my eyes out on the car ride home!!! Man I love that kid! We joke that her OCD kicks in when I'm away from home. lol She literally takes over my role. She cleaned up the whole house!!! And put dinner away, and did the dishes! I must be the luckiest Mom in the world today :) TY Dee!! xoxox ((seriously very appreciative))

So Back to the Cakes: Jake & I made his "Dual Survival" Birthday Cake :) That's his new show on Discovery. So we have a jungle terrain, with some trees, a cave, river with fish, and a volcano with of course Cody Lundin and Dave! It turned out AWESOME! I think I might even upload the picture to their facebook page :) He's pretty excited about it. And Dana made her vision of an elegant anniversary cake come to life! Plucked it right from her thoughts and make it reality. A double tier layered cake, white fondant and fancy black flowers and scrolling. The top of the cake has a bouquet of red & black roses which were hand made with fondant. This girl must take after her MOTHER when it comes to crafts! hehehe I'll post some pix so you all can see.

So after all this, I guess I'm starting to unwind. Maybe I just needed some down time, relax, and catch up on my sleep. Because I really have NOT been sleeping well these past three nights. So here's to tomorrow. A fresh new day! Good Night my loyal readers :)

Friday, July 23, 2010

Graditude



As I served my husband and children dinner this evening, I was overwhelmed with graditude. It was just honey mustard chicken with a vegetable, pasta side and biscut, made from just two boneless chicken breasts. I had portioned the package so that I could get two meals out of it for this week. It wasn't alot, there were no left overs, but my family are fed :) As I cleared the table I thanked God for all the things and people in my life that really matter. And I found an ounce of HOPE.

I stop and look around and see that no one has it that good right now. Things could always be worse. I know families whose homes are in foreclosure, relatives with terminal sicknesses, tons that are jobless, and I just stop and pray. Please God just a little help down here! Give us HOPE! And when you least expect it, someone usually appears at your doorstep who tries to help in some way. Thank you for these Angels :) I know you are listening God.

I stood in the grocery checkout today behind a young woman who said she doesn't have any patience for clipping coupons, as I stood holding mine in hand. I clip coupons because I have to. I shop and plan meals around sale items. I stood there thinking how nice it must be to just throw money away and not spend hours of my time planning and budgeting every penny spent on food. I buy everything with coupons! Even clothing! If I can save $10 with a coupon, better believe I will. Coupons are like FREE MONEY! and with every $0.50 coupon I use it's another dollar saved in my pocket.

Thank you God for a pair of healthy hands to clip coupons with! LOL

Monday, July 19, 2010

When Shit Happens...



What do you do when your are faced with the inevitable? You can either stress yourself into sickness or just do what you can until you've reached the very end of the line. Of course this is much easier to do when you have a back up plan. But I'm ready for whatever- bring it! But don't think for one minute, that I'm not going to try and enjoy myself while I can. If this ship is sinking, I'm sure as hell not going to go down in distress.

What are these things we attach ourselves too? Material things that become so important to us, that we feel we can't live without. For me, I've been letting go slowly but yes, I'm letting go of these things. And with it, I've let go of the worry, the stress of trying to hold on. Things do make me happy- but it's only temporary. It's fleeting. What makes me happy are the moments spent together, unfortunately this is conflicting. I love spending time with my hubby and kids, and I love making them happy. However like most kids, things make my children happy. And with each monetary purchase the stress is more and more apparent in my husbands face. I'm sorry he has to carry this burden, and I know I am in part the blame. I get angry with the way things work today. I've spent all my life playing by the rules, doing what is expected of me. And where has it gotten me? In the end, we're still pretty screwed. Our dreams~gone, Our futures now a gray shade of uncertainty. Shit happens for a reason. But there comes a time when you have to accept- THE SHIT IS HAPPENING so make the best of it.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Ranting Hiatus

I'm counting to 10!
It's not working....
This is going to be a Rant blog about things that have been ANNOYING me.

~Trash, candy wrappers, & change thrown on my dresser.
~Clothes not being put away, including belts laying on the bed.
~Drinks left around, waiting to be knocked over by the cats.
~The blown lightbulb in my bedroom.

ALL OF THIS BEFORE I EVEN LEAVE THE BEDROOM EACH MORNING!

~Splatters on my bathroom mirror.
~Paste in the sink.
~Toys in the bathtub, tossed on the floor.

WHAT I SEE EVERY MORNING AS IM RELIEVING MY BLADDER-DIDN'T EVEN MAKE IT DOWN STAIRS YET.

~My sofa pillows & throw on the floor, my house in disarray before I even had my first cup of coffee.
~Tripping over toy guns and riffles everywhere.
~My diningroom table becoming an endless pit for papers and crap.
~The powder room sink filled with toys and over flowing with water.
~When the toilet paper sits on top of the roll. JUST PUT IT ON WHEN YOU REFILL. Geeze.

FINALLY GETTING TO THE KITCHEN.
~Used Pans on the stove & the stove hasnt been wiped down.
~Tons of dishes already in the sink.
~Countertops are crumby. ALWAYS!
~Over flowing recycle bins, trashcans. Then when it does get changed, it sits by the back door instead of in the trashcans outback.
~Empty juiceboxes everywhere, including the straw wrappers.
~The blown lightbulb in my kitchen.

THIS IS PROBABLY WHY I'M SO TIRED ALL THE TIME. I can't relax even when relaxing because I have all this annoying crap in the back of my mind ALL THE TIME. Maybe I should just stop caring because apparently no one else cares enough to clean up after their damn selves. HOW LAZY CAN A PERSON BE? I don't think all this should fall on me daily, when it's just a matter of each person taking a minute to be neater, or just do what their supposed to do in the first place. It's like my husband lost his mind and all the years of training in marriage when he lost his job. Well were both unemployeed...Maybe I'll lose my damn mind too.

I remember a time when my husband cared. He took pride in fixing our home up and helping me keep it nice. He's been on Hiatus for the past year and it's making me unhappy. Especially when he wont upkeep the house...or paint my diningroom that was promised to me last November. The woodwork is chipping and just nastey too which he also promised to paint decades ago.

HIATUS is coming to an end... We can do this peacefully or it can be an all out war. It's his choice.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

When dreams fade into Reality

Everyday I look for the positive in our situation. Everyday looks more bleek than the day before. Time is running out like a thief in the night, stealing with it my hopes and dreams of a better future. Without loss, how can you appreciate what you have? Did we not show graditude? Have we not been counting our blessings all these years? Why then must we face lossing everything we've come to know and love? We need not lose everything to appreciate it. Never have we taken our lives for granted, or loved ones for granted, jobs, & especially our home. I'm not saying were at that point yet of losing our home, but with each passing week of Chris not being able to find emloyment, the deadline creeps nearer. And with that- my ability to remain positive about our situation. Optimism is quickly turning over to REALISM.

Chris my husband jokes often, saying I lost my zen when in fact I'm just seeing things realistically so I wont be shocked when the time is upon us kicking our asses to the curb. My dreams for the future are being replaced by ways to survive instead. The universe works in strange ways~ and who knows maybe this is the way to acquiring everything we hoped for. Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom, in order to rebuild a better future. What is freaking me out a little is our uncertainty as a nation! The problem isn't just with us, it's 80% of the population. What the hell is going on? I thought the Change Obama promised was going to be for the better, not worse!

Im sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm sick of fighting for every little thing that should be easy in the first place. Even the simplist of tasks such as ordering out food or having prescription refilled is a God Damn struggle. Why? Why must everything be such a pain in the ass? I can stand a lot of BS, so when I start to get impatient and upset, that's when you know IVE BEEN BITING MY TONGUE A WHILE! God damn, my prescriptions arent even the good kind! And why the hell cant drive through get my order right just once? HUH? These people cant even work a fast food joint, meanwhile I know plenty of hard working people who want to work that cant find jobs. CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS COUNTRY?

I'm so pissed right now I'M MAULTING! I'm shedding my tan just as fast as it came. Son of a BITCH. This little chickie is gonna hurt somebody.